The Mohawk

My hair is growing back. And that makes me very happy. For the past year I’ve been cutting it  shorter and shorter. I swear I was nearly bald.

But a few months ago I got an inclination to let my hair grow back. So, even though I’ve been going to the barber shop every week to keep my lines nice and neat, I’m allowing my hair to grow longer.

I didn’t realize how much it had grown until I styled it in this mohawk. Ain’t it cute?

Spring will be here before we know it and with the warm weather it can be very difficult to grow your hair out, especially if you’re used to shorter styles.

I’ve collected a few pictures of my favorite celebrities from various magazines. They are my inspiration pictures. Anytime I feel like shaving all my hair off again, I’ll look at the pictures to help me gain control of myself.

We’ll see how this hair thing goes. But I must find a new style because my children say I look like a rooster. Don’t they know I’m a Carolina girl? Go Gamecocks!

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A Little Snobbery

A few weeks ago a “friend” said something to me that was so shocking and painful. He called me an “elitist” and said “you think you’re better than other people“. Damn. My soul was crushed. For real.

I swear I was so stunned by what he said I just knew I misunderstood him. So, I got the dictionary and looked up the word elitist. Shit. I had it right. My understanding of elitist was on point. As I read the definition over and over again anger started to rise. “Clearly he does not know me,” I thought. “I am one of the most down to earth people ever created.”

So, I went to Facebook and posted “Today coworker called me elitist. He told me I thought I was better that other people“. I just knew that posting this to my circle of 551 best friends would garner support. Instead I got the following responses:

“And the problem with this is….?”

“You are an elitist. Be proud!”

WTF?????????

I was so confused. This is not a description I find flattering or complementary. I find it to be degrading and reprehensible. I am not an elitist. I do not think I’m better than anyone on this earth. I’m a good friend. I treat people as fairly and respectfully as I can. I walk around with a damn smile on my face as to show myself friendly. I open myself up to strangers and treat them as my closest friends. I am not an elitist.

I know it is ridiculous that I’m still holding on to that stupid statement my “friend” made after all these weeks. But I know who I am and I’m totally offended that he would make such harsh comments that were clearly intended to hurt me. Well, he succeeded. I’m hurt. I’m also angry because it seemed to be his honest and true opinion of me. I wonder why I ever considered him my friend.  I’m also wondering why my Facebook friends would rally around such a comment as if it should be applauded. I AM NOT AN ELITIST!

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Longing for the Weekend

Yesterday, I walked in my house and immediately got happy. It was weird but I started smiling  once I opened the door to my garage. I’m usually relieved to be home after a long workday, but yesterday was different. Being in my home and staring at my carpet brought a visible smile to my face.

I’m having such a rough time. I don’t know if it’s the changing job locations at the end of 2010 that I still haven’t adjusted to, or my mother’s death that I’m trying not to think about. But my spirit has shifted to a bad place. And all I want to do is be at home….with my family.

My weekends are magical. I get to wake up early and lie in bed until I fall back to sleep. Then one or two, sometimes all three of my little monkeys wake me up and beg for breakfast. I don’t mind being awakened by them at all because I know we have the whole day together to do whatever it is we choose to do.

I wish everyday could be like the weekend.

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A Heavy Heart

Doing something that you’ve never done before is terribly frightening. I’m about to embark on a new venture and I’ve found 100 different ways to talk myself out of it. I’m scared. My heart is heavy. But I must move forward because if I sit still I might burst at the seams.

My life has to change because I’m miserable. Waking up every morning is so depressing to me. I thank God for allowing me to see another day and I’m certainly happy to be able to earn a paycheck. But I hate my job so much that I can’t hide it anymore.

I’m so unhappy at work I get a headache almost everyday. And the weird part is I’m doing a great job. My students’ test scores were “excellent”, so I was told. I was recognized with a few other teacher for having the highest test scores in the whole school. And guess what? I don’t give a shit. I really don’t.

So, it’s time for me to do something that I care about -something that won’t give me a headache or make me miserable. Exactly what? I’m not ready to share yet…because I haven’t figured out what that is. But for now, I’ll just go to the nearest gas station and buy a lottery ticket. Keep your fingers crossed!

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Blogging, Cheaper Than Therapy

In June of 2011 I began a “30 Days of Blogging” series here on KrystalGrant.com . I decided, due to major boredom, that I’d blog everyday for 30 days. This would be a major feat for me being that my normal blogging schedule was only 2-3 times per week.

On June 1st I began. It was great for the first 7 or 8 days. I was excited to update my site with new content for all to enjoy. And since I would be home from work for the entire summer I was positive there’d be nothing to prevent me from creating fresh posts.

Then my mother died unexpectedly (the day before my 35th birthday). This was the worst thing that had ever happened in my life. And during the time of her passing this blog was the absolute last thing on my mind. But it was all that I had. All that I could control. So, I blogged about her death and I let you know exactly how I was feeling. I probably cried through every post during the week of planning her funeral. But this blog was all that I had. All that I could control. So I wrote- everyday.

The week after she died my family went on a much needed vacation to Myrtle Beach. It was an awful trip. Don’t get me wrong, the beach was beautiful. The weather was fantastic. But I wasn’t present. I was still in the tornado of my mother’s passing. I remember very little about the trip except that I continued to blog-every single day. It was all that I had. All that I could control.

My “30 Days of Blogging” series continued throughout the month of June and on into July. I was depressed. I sat at home with my laptop attached to my thighs and blogged- everyday. It was all that I had. All that I could control.

July passed by and I continued to blog throughout the first few weeks of August. It was time for me to start another school year and I made an attempt to blog everyday, but I couldn’t keep up. Many teachers know how hectic the first few weeks of school can be. And since I was at a new school teaching a new grade, I became overwhelmed and my “30 Days of Blogging” series which has lasted well past 60 days came to an end.

Now, with the start of 2012 I’ve been blogging 5 days a week. Monday through Friday I post new content for all to read. And on Saturdays and Sundays I take a break ( just as if this were a “real” job). Some bloggers may find it difficult to post new content on such a frequent basis but it’s become very easy for me.

Honestly, I am quite preoccupied with my writing.  So anything notable, memorable, funny, sad or surprising that occurs during my day has the potential to become a blog post. I can’t tell you how many times Mr. Incredible has heard me say “I’m gonna blog about that”. And I can’t tell you how many times he’s responded, “please don’t!”

So, if you’re having trouble creating content for your blog just think about all the amazing things that happen in your day: The homeless man you help on the street corner, a co worker that has body odor, a great movie you saw, your secret crush…any of these things can be a blog post. I guarantee there will be someone who can relate to what you write. And the more you post, the easier it becomes. Good luck with posting.  And keep this in mind: Blogging is certainly cheaper than therapy!

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Goodbye, Picnik!

There are several MUST HAVES for a blogger. One mandatory doodad is excellent content- nobody likes to read a boring blog, right? A well-written blog post takes precedents above all things blog related. But another important accoutrement for a savvy, social media maven is an excellent photo editing tool. Beautifully cropped photos decorated with fantastic borders, highlighted colors and obvious watermarks is a necessity.

Thankfully, a former student tuned me in to the perfect online photo editor and I’ve used it for years. Picnik is my editing tool of choice. It is delightful. Picnik allows you to do so many things to a photo.  You can add textures, colors, special effects and stickers. I absolutely love Picnik and I used it every time I post on this blog.

Sadly, I found out today that my beloved online photo editing tool will shut down on April 19th. What am I to do? I’ve never used another photo editor. And I don’t want to. I love Picnik. And I want it to stay.

For more on the closing of Picnik click here.

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Slight Headache with a Side of Vomit

I’m so sad my baby girl got sick at school. I went to pick her up and she immediately looked at me and burst into tears. She complained of a terrible headache and cried all the way home. Once we arrived she disappeared down the hall and I didn’t see her again until I heard her meekly call my name.

My girl was bent over the toilet with her head immersed in the bowl. She had vomited. I stood there rubbing her back while she continued to dispense her lunch into the toilet.

Once her stomach was empty I helped her change clothes and brush her teeth. I gave her strict instructions to lie down in her bed. A few minutes later I go up to check on my girl and she had fallen asleep. She was snoring softly so I gently touched her forehead to check for fever. She was cool to the touch.

I knew that sleeping would make her feel much better and I wasn’t too worried because she didn’t show signs of fever. But I quickly, and without hesitation called into work. I informed my job that I would, in fact, be out the next day. I smiled the entire time I was on the phone -surly thought to be deranged.

During our “sick day” my girl and I danced in the bathroom while doing our hair, turned the TV up as loud as we could and sang with the commercials, walked through Target and had lunch in the mall’s food court. It was magical. We were both thrilled to be taking the day off.

Now, I’m not one for wishing any type of sickness on a child, but sometimes a slight headache with a side of vomit is all you need to make your day a little brighter.

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Diabetes Sucks

So…Paula Deen has diabetes. I’m not sure who is surprised by this. A blind man could have seen this news coming. For years Paula Deen has shown us various ways to prepare high fat, high calorie meals that are drowned in butter, oil and sugar.

When I first heard the news I immediately began to anticipate the “new” recipes she’d be sharing with her fans (myself included). I couldn’t wait until she made her stop in Atlanta for her diabetes cookbook signing. I was prepared to stand in line and get a picture snapped with my girl, Paula.

But then I saw her interview on the Today show and my heart began to ache. Paula said not one word about the fact that diabetes affects 25.8 million children and adults in the United States. Not once did she mention that in 2007  diabetes contributed to a total of 231,404 American deaths. But she did say ” I’m not your doctor, I’m your cook”.

Paula Deen neglected to mention that more than 60% of nontraumatic lower-limb amputations occur in people with diabetes. But she was sure to state her new partnership with a particular drug company.

And Ms. Deen certainly did not tell us that being active is a big part of living a healthy lifestyle and people with diabetes or those at risk for type 2 diabetes could benefit greatly from exercise and activity. But she adamantly defended her cooking show by saying its “for entertainment”.

I could go on and on about my disappointments with this 6 minute interview but instead let me sum of my feelings by saying this…

Since 1995 I have watched my father sit at the end of our dining room table and stick needles in his stomach. I’ve seen him fill vile after vile with his diabetes medication and I secretly lived in terror that that would one day be my destiny.

In 2002 my uncle had his toes and part of his foot amputated after suffering from diabetes. And my sister is now on diabetes medication.

In 2008 when I was pregnant with my youngest child my doctor, after forcing me to drink this disgusting orange liquid then wait  3 hours in his office with no food or water, tells me that I, in fact, had gestational diabetes. That was my death sentence (so I thought). For months I had to prick my finger, smear my blood on a stick and take 3 pills a day to manage my higher than normal blood sugar.

Diabetes sucks. And I thank God that after my son’s birth my levels returned to normal and have remained so for the past three years. So, this is my problem with Paula Deen: She has a responsibility to her audience….you know, the people who rearrange their schedules just to watch her show, or stand in line for hours to get her autograph, or spend money on tickets to see her speak, or buy her products, or eat at her restaurants.

She has a responsibility to tell those people, and the millions of diabetes patients in the world that there are ways, other than taking drugs from the pharmeceutical company that’s paying her so handsomely, to manage diabetes and live a healthier, more active lifestyle.

You dropped the ball on this one Ms. Deen. You really dropped the ball. Moreover, in the three years that you were “keeping it close to your chest” you could have partnered with the American Diabetes Association and done amazing work to educate people on the risk factors and effects of diabetes. You could have created some amazing meals for people living with diabetes. You could have even created a work out video for baby boomers like yourself in order to promote a more active lifestyle.

But instead, you decided to promote medication and continue cooking your cakes with 5 sticks of butter. I admit, it’s your right to make decisions about your own life. But you’ve lost a fan Ms. Deen. You’ve really lost a big fan.

For more on me and Paula Deen click  here (you can also type in “Paula Deen” in my search box).

*All statistics come from the American Diabetes Association .

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{re}Treat Yourself

I’m so overwhelmed. I’ve been this way for a long, long time. It seems that I’m always on the verge of tears, or a nervous breakdown. My attempts to hold it all together are steadily failing and I’m cracking under pressure. Seriously.

My job is getting the best of me and I’m contemplating NOT signing my contract for the upcoming school year (haven’t I said this before?). Lauryn Hill wrote a song a few years ago called “I gotta find peace of mind”. Well, if there are any working mothers out there who have found their peace of mind I certainly wish you’d help me locate mine.

My life seems like a big jumbled mess of what I desire to do and what I’m required to do. Oh! If I could just win the lottery…..

And just before I check myself into a mental institution from the stresses of daily life that have driven me mad, Stacey Ferguson comes and saves the day. She is the creator of a brand new event that caters to women like myself who are trying desperately to balance it all. 

 {re}Treat Yourself-a lifestyle redesign getaway for working mothers taking place on April 13th and 14th 2012 at the AAA Four Diamond Lansdowne Resort in Leesburg, VA is just what I need.

 This event will offer busy mothers workshops on topics such as: fitness and relaxation; meal planning; developing support systems; home and office organization; and more.

It sounds like this is the breath of fresh air that I need to regain a sense of self and restructure my unorganized, hectic life.

If you are like me and need to find a little peace of mind click here to register for{re}Treat Yourself. It will be phenomenal. 

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MAC Makeup Brush

This is my new make up brush. And I love it. I had been spending  close to $20.00 a month on new make up sponges for my pressed powder. But on my last visit to MAC one of the make up artists suggested that i purchase a brush instead.

After spending  close to and hour discussing the various types of professional brushes sold by MAC I finally decided on the 129sh power blush brush. I love it.

My makeup application is so much easier with the brush than with the sponges I used to use. And I’m saving so much more money now because my brush will last for nearly a year. Now I won’t have to run to the MAC store every two weeks to buy new sponges.

I like my brush so much I think I’m going back to the MAC store to search for more beauty products. Do you shop at MAC?  Have you tried any of their make up brushes? What’s your beauty regimen?

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