Doing something that you’ve never done before is terribly frightening. I’m about to embark on a new venture and I’ve found 100 different ways to talk myself out of it. I’m scared. My heart is heavy. But I must move forward because if I sit still I might burst at the seams.
My life has to change because I’m miserable. Waking up every morning is so depressing to me. I thank God for allowing me to see another day and I’m certainly happy to be able to earn a paycheck. But I hate my job so much that I can’t hide it anymore.
I’m so unhappy at work I get a headache almost everyday. And the weird part is I’m doing a great job. My students’ test scores were “excellent”, so I was told. I was recognized with a few other teacher for having the highest test scores in the whole school. And guess what? I don’t give a shit. I really don’t.
So, it’s time for me to do something that I care about -something that won’t give me a headache or make me miserable. Exactly what? I’m not ready to share yet…because I haven’t figured out what that is. But for now, I’ll just go to the nearest gas station and buy a lottery ticket. Keep your fingers crossed!
Krystal, I had the same feeling two years ago. Good luck to you, it is scary and liberating at the same time!
Three years ago, I was EXACTLy where you are now. Compose an exit strategy and make it happen! If it worked for me, it can work for anyone. I had a lot of things against me and I’m still standing. I won’t pretend that it’s been easy–but certainly worth it. Make it happen, girl–I’m with you!
That feeling in the bottom of your stomach, like there has to be something better, urging you to run… jump… leap… I know that feeling all too well. Your blessing is coming!